For those who still follow this blog, hey how are you?
You are just looking great! Have you lost weight?
And I’m sorry for just skydiving off the radar so suddenly.
See the truth is for the past few years I have been struggling with my social anxiety. Even though I created this blog when I was getting better, after leaving college I spiralled into it again. My college life though was still a struggle, it let me face my fears and put my writing out there. My book writing was on authonomy, my blog being filled with my very own stories and poetry.
Afterwards, I left my blog to rot and closed down my authonomy. I abandoned everything because of a mental bomb that I risked setting off with each push forward-especially when people I knew read my work. After a few months of an extreme state of anxiety I thought I had come back from (you know your having bad days when you can’t even go to the counter at McDonalds and ask for food), with the help of friends, family and a new mindset I am back.
My work may not suit everyone’s tastes but I am going to write it. People can read it, hate it and mock it but I am going to write it.
My work is dark and different, that’s how I like it.
I am still struggling, I know that.
But I’m not afraid anymore.